29th october.

it 10:27pm in my laptop clock.

Its a sunday, the one day I get off by sheer luck and my client's grace as well as the mercy of people who do not make
attrocious choices at the eleventh hour for doing something over the weekend.

anyways, I have been in pune for more than 20 days I guess and this is my first weekend here so far. I have spent the last
2 weekends in mumbai and no doubts all the weekend have been great and happening. only that today was the typical lonely
type of sundy I am more used to when I am on project.

I could have called quite a few people and I had thought I would meet them and its will grea to be with friends again and
have some fun. but as things worked out, I was alone the whole day and even now ! hehe.. of course or alas ! ! !


I spent half the morning waking up and going back to sleep as I didnt want to get up. finally when I did get up the only
thought was to call up someone and spend the whole day with her. hmm.. not exactly her coz I keep saying to myself, I have
moved on. as hitch says " I do not like to get invloved with someone beyond a certain point " I passed my limit a long time
ago and I guess I should not be thinking about this anymore but still am still emotionally immature at times and I know it
and I admit it.


I had to buy a jacket for myself coz its gets a bit cold in the evenings here and all I have are my normal clothes
irrespective of the weather. I have been in half sleeve and full sleeve shirts and tshirts and the usual stuff all this
while but its time to change coz its end of november and I better get some warm clothing before the cold catches me . I am
already not well coz of the throat infection.. I had gone to the doctor to get something done about it but the cost of the
medicines freaked me out. Rs 80 a tablet is crazy. the fact that it would be reimbursed by the company is a different
matter. But getting meds worth a thousand bucks sounds crazy to me.. even its me buying them for me !


I checked out adidas, reebok before going to wills life style where I spent more than 45 mins trying to get the jacket of
my choice. I made those guys take out all the things they had my size range and after doing all that I wasnt happy. I was
never like that. I never had so many choices in clothes. I never used to think twice before buying anything. its now that I
actually take shopping as something to be done more carefully coz after all its my money and I want to get the maximum out
of it. I guess being in the vendor side has its implications in this way that now I am actually a very demanding customer
myself although the client side people in the last 2 projects have been quite cool. for that matter even sitel in the end
got cool with me and now I have santosh dukare calling me every now and then for a job !

Coming back to what exactly I was trying to get for myself >> a jacket ! I thought of getting a half jacket or maybe a
simple jacket but then had a crazy brain wave of getting a jacket with bright colours instead of the usual dull colours I
keep searching and getting for myself. its time for a change for good. for me.

People whom I work with have been quite sad about their lives and me too have been feeling the same for some time now. they
are so desperate with their jobs and lives that its rubbing on me and making me feel the same. I was in this soup for a
long time , more so during sitel and I told myself to get out of it and get the depressing thoughts outa my head but then a
little of it has remained and like everyone else me too looking to something new in life.. something more exciting. not
that I am unhappy here but then a change always does good or to make it sound better the only thing that's constant is
change.

I went to MG road which is supposed to be a pretty happening place and called up my Avaya pal . got the details of what I
had to buy and finally, after months of thinking and waiting I bought myself a 80GB USB HDD. it cost my 4800 along with the
casing and stuff. I have realised that rather than waiting for things to happen or waiting for the right thing to happen..
the time will never come. I have to make things happen now. whether its anything or anyone, the TIME IS NOW.

I then went to the pyramid mall where I checked out atleast 5-6 stores and options with jackets including my fav store >>
Mark and Spencer. the jackets were crap but frighfully expensive. so me decided to have a look around in all the stores
there. and sadly I did not find anything which caught my eye. So far I have searching for my clothes which are the formal
dull look but then I decided to change all this and go for really bright colours. two years ago, when I went to buy a
sweater for me, I turned down all the bright options coz I wanted to stick to grey, the only colour I knew. last year,
there was no winter for me as I was in mumbai all the time. I actually missed out on winter last year. and I hope i dont
miss out on winter this year for the same reason. although it will be great to be in mumbai but then times have been
changed and maybe so have I.

I have never ever spent so much time thinking and hunting for clothes for myself as I did today. its truly a long way off
from any of the shopping I have done even when I am with mom. I have never actually had a great color sense and even now i
don’t. I'd rather stick to some of the more established colors which exist in my colors vocabulary than anything else
which resembles colors I don’t even know ! I guess I did find the jacket i kind of wanted although the weather here isn’t
exactly the type , in which u need to wear something warm. its end of November and the cold hasn’t set in here so far.

after coming back I started with the HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER series and I truly love this series.. no matter what. its
awesome and it totally rocks. to use the word from on of the episodes its L E G E N D A R Y .. This is something even I would really love to do . telling my kids of how I met their mother and all that stuff.. I am not drunk right now . I am totally in control of myself and am listening to NUMB, linkin park . so am fine but yes I so much like the idea of story telling like this.. hehe..



I have been traveling all the time and wondering when and where would be getting to know someone I want to know. the kind
of instabilities in my life are beyond any logical equations but like I wrote earlier, the fault is mine too coz am a
little emotionally immature and am more often than not not sure about how to approach someone.I am hardly anyplace for long enough to know someone and the problem of the vendor- customer part always bothers me. Here too I have started knowing people but the thought which worries me is that time’s always too short and once I go.. am back to where I was and the next thing I hear is that she’s getting married. And then I feel I should have tried hard enough. . its high time for a bigger and
better outlook to life.

maybe am getting a little carried away now at this hour. its 11.11 pm now and I cant believe I have written so much already
without a break. the only break was to change the songs.

so whats next ? how are thing going out to be. I should be studying like crazy now since I have two of the most important
exams of my life coming up and I should definitely be more focused on them right now. I have studies for CAT at all so far
and the GRE preparations are slow. its all about the day of the exam now. no matter how much one studies and what one
studies, its all about the presence of the mind during the exam and that’s about it.