last sunday, 18th jan I had gone to a wedding at the Taj Palace, one

of the most luxurious hotels in Delhi. Un Singh uncle's daugther was

getting married to a gujju boy. a very ABCD 2nd generation Indian

wedding. It was sure as lavish as it was chaotic and it had both the

Indian and the Christian traditions like the first dance.
The wedding and the Pheras were over in less than half an hour and the

bidai was done pretty quickly too. The reception followed the wedding

at the same venue.


UN Singh sent Dad an invite and Das said I would be there for the

wedding. So after the class on sunday , I got a call from indu aunty

asking me to be at dwarka in time to go for the wedding. I played

cricket as usual. didnt play well for what ever reason, took off early

and then came home to get ready.

became a good boy, removed my 2 day stubble. I had decided to wear a

simple shirt and trousers with formal shoes and the new sweater Dad

had sent. But then Mom and m sister insisted that I should go in a tie

and suit. The last time I was in a tie and suit was in betu bhaiya's

wedding almost 2 yrs ago !


I cant tell you surdy how much I missed you that time. if only you

were there to guide me about the clothes, I would never have had any

probs. I had such a problem in trying to check what shirt and trousers

would go right and which sweater to wear.
If only D was there with M to choose and select :'( that was the

thought in my mind that time and since then.


So finally rexona bhabhiji convinced me to wear it. suit and tie it

was. I didnt care about the cold or the weather or anything else. I

was sure quite uncomfy there in that attire since I am not used to

wearing it but still managed to do fine. interesting thing is that i

didnt know anyone but UN Singh Uncle and of course, kittu uncle, indu

aunty and rexona bhabhiji were with me.


There were quite a few good looking girls there, all dressed all

jhatak and daring but I dont think anyone would match D in colors and

style. D set the standard and the benchmark so high that now I cant

even come close to comparing anyone to her. I dont know if D still has

the same interest in clothes design and style as earlier. I wish that

she does have the same interest and now even more and one day she

starts her own boutique just like I had suggested once.


26th jan, 11:18am

I am watching the Republic Day parade. the weather is good for a

change and its bright and sunny outside. The marchpast and the

colorful tableaus are great. maybe some day I'll get a chance to go

there and see the parade first hand. D had a dear wish to walk

barefeet in the grass near India Gate holding my hand and us having

ice cream together. I hope her dream comes true with her husband when

ever they come to delhi.


I was in life style yday. mom and dad had bought me a sweater when

they were here for Dusherra, when i had the kidney stone problem. The

sweater was size XXL but still small for me ! so i had go and get it

changed. I have been lazy for some time now so havent gone and

exchanged it for a sweater of my size. Sweaters and Jackets have

always been a problem for me when it comes to size coz I need bigger

clothes especially at shoulders and in length. The arm's length is a

maojor problem for me wrt to sweaters.


It took some shouting and convincing at the life style counter to get

them moving and agreeing for the replacement. I have become extremely

short tempered and I abuse things and people left and right at times.

Really becoming a short fuse blockbuster bomb. I had a fight with my

parents too when i was in the shop and I asked them to relax and let

me do what I wanted to do.


Finally, the life stle people gave me a crdit note of 1495 for

anything i wanted to buy. I took the next 2 hrs or so to search for

something for myself. I used to hate buying clothes for myself and it

was D who taught me colors and style, and I always used to tell her

that if she went away I would be at sea without any help or support.

and I would probably never ever be able to shop again with anyone

else. I dont know what or how is that going to change now. I missed

her so much when it came to choosing between sweaters, jackets, shirts

and trousers. finally I selected something about repeatd trials. If

only D was there with me, things would have been soooooo much simpler.



Soumik is getting married ! He gave me a call 2 days ago and broke the

news. This is really amazing. When we were room mates, he used to say

he would never ever get married. I broke his resistance from never

ever to some day to in the next 2-3 yrs to now. And he is getting

married within a month now. I hope I am able to attend ayush's

wedding, so attending dada's wedding seems to be a challenge at the

moment.