12:12 am

am still up and working. I have been like this for the last so many months now. till when and how much more I dont know. my eyes seem to ache all the time. I spend so much time on the laptop that i dont know if there's a window to life outside it. I really really want to reduce the time being spent on this and read more books, do more outdoor activities and spend more time with friends and family.

am watching " Love Aaj Kal " again side by side. very interesting movie, and the problem I have been relating just about everything to this movie. after all its all fiction, nothing is meant to be true or related to teh real life situation yet thats what I am doing.

may be I need to sleep. I definitely need to sleep. I dont know when was the last time i slept soundly and woke up fresh. so fresh that it was a new start and not a carry over from the last day. I have been working, running after things, studies and something ehre and there.

Last week was eventful as kittu uncle wasnt well and was in the ICU when aunty called me. Since betu bro is on ship I was there to help out aunty and make sure things were fine. I had donated blood that very morning and wanted to slow down and relax for a few days but the exact opposite has happened till date. I have been just getting stretched and stretched and pushed to limits.

After we brought uncle back home, I took out time to meet the princess and spend some time with her. I sure had a great time with her. First time I bought plants with some one ! almost got into a fight with her party hosts as they became strangely nasty to me. maybe it wasnt right to go and meet her at 1:15am ! the host and the 4 other ass holes cracked some joke i couldnt understand and then by the time the joke got over, i had worn my shoes to go out. I was outnumbered so maybe thats why didnt retaliate or go into a free for all punch fest but after months I felt the urge to really really hit someone. the last one being a certain surd who will one day bear my wrath but thats another story.